…..and i am feeling old and tired! I don’t think its the fact that I am officially turning 39 in a few days, more the turns of life making me feel all of them these days!
We have been afllicted with a virus in the house, doesn’t seem we are alone, something is ‘doing the rounds’ Alhamdulileh! A much needed cleansing for sins insha’allah. But always a releif to see your little sleepy sad baby come back to gigling and enjoying lifes adventures masha’allah.
Another casualty this week has been my phone! So no pics for the near future unless a new phone magically appears or I find something suitable in my albumns to brighten the place up.
On a more serious note I attended the funeral of a lovely sister whom I have not seen for maybe 11 years, but whose warmth and love of her deen never left me. After 9 years fighting cancer, insha’allah she is now in a much better place. May Allah grant her a wide grave and jannat al firdous insha’allah. And may those she left behind have patience and abundant reward through their patience. Ameen
My father is also gravely ill, it is really just a question of time with terminal lung cancer. And for me as a muslima facing the reality of losing a familly member that has not come into Islam. And thinking of what their grave holds for them. Living in Algeria many people ask about your familly back home and how are they….but they really have very little understanding of the meaning of having a non muslim familly, especially in the face of death and will often make the same duas they would make for a muslim, thinking of them as the people of the book and not really as kafrs or non muslims.
My father and I have not been close since I embraced Islam. He was never happy with my choices and it has only been in the face of death that we are talking more. People often talk of regrets, insha’allah I will have non. I have tried to talk about islam, he rejected it. He doesnt even have any particular religious beliefs…..seems funny that he has arranged his own funeral with a church service and place in a church graveyard….or maybe that is some kind of recognition in the face of death.
It is kind of strange, but yet kind of beautiful to be in the position of waiting for a new life within our familly, and the passing of another life also within the familly. These are reminders that Allah leaves for us. To all my beautiful sisters make a priority in your lives to make dua for our own famillies and each others famillies. May Allah remove the blindness from their hearts and guide them to the truth. May he make us steadfast upon the straight path, ameen.
These times make you so grateful for the blessings Allah has bestowed upon us, insha’allah these feelings will stay close, so that we can feel close to our Lord and not forget that ever present cycle of life of births and more importantly of deaths, ameen. And when all of mankind are gathered on that last day, may we be in the shade of Allah, with his mercy showering us. Ameen