Today would have

been a big day if I hadn’t been muslim. The big 4 0 is a time people  sweat over, like a one way ride over a bridge of no return! I don’t celebrate birthdays and have never celebrated them since I turned muslim almost exactly 17 years ago (gulp) alhamdulileh. In fact I am so used to not celebrating birthdays that I forget it is even my birthday unless someone reminds me, which someone from my familly usually does, by send me a cryptic message something like ‘may sunday bring you many blessings’. Well I guess its not a direct happy birthday!

  I wasn’t really fearful of this day. I mean we all get older,more wrinkley, grey haired, gain a few pounds and maybe lose a few brain cells! But this is the cycle of life. I was however surprised when having my morning tea to find myself feeling a little melancholic. I sat thinking about that feeling and had a though that if I had an average lifespan then I was over half way there. That wasn’t a nice thought. A wave of fear over swept as I came face to face with the innevitable and only certainty that we have in this life. That we are all going to die. What will my grave be like? What is written for me in the hereafter? Oh yeah Allah, save us from the punishment of the grave and the punishment of th next life! Keep us in your shade on that terrible day when or deeds will be measured. Keep us on the straight path in this life, and guide our children to it. Oh Allah keep that reality of death in our minds that we may work towards earning your forgiveness ameen, yaaa rab il ‘alameen.


Don’t they look


Of course back home we are more used to seeing strawberries in June then March. But they are very welcome and a delicious sign that spring is in the air. These are one of my favourite things masha’allah.

The children are now into their spring holidays from school so a busy couple of weeks ahead and lots of cries of I’m bored no doubt. Insha’allah I will be finding some on line ways of keeping the younger members of my brood occupied, I’ve gone past trying with the teens nothing seems ot interest them. Though a friend has very kindly invited my three big boys to spend some of the holidyas with her boys, so the entertaining will be passed over(very willingly too)!

And for me? well I have started some crochet for next winter for my two little girls, also some sewing in the air. A curtain to cover some mess in my kitchen, those never ending repairs and hopefully with that promise of spring some light tops for the warmer weather bi’ithnileh!

And best of all the much anticipated arrival of my mum and her husband, who we haven’t seen for far too long.

Wishing you all a pleasant, positive and productive spring.

Do you ever

feel that life is just one big battle? A constant round of shouting, frustrations, qaurelling children  and needless arguements?


I guess its the down side of motherhood for me and many other mums around the globe. I’m pretty sure ts universal, the sibling rivalries, the jealousy and a stressed mum trying to keep everyone in order!

Of course there is much joy too, the snuggles and cuddles. The giggles and out right laughs. The companionship and even love every once in a while.

and of course there’s nothing like a little helper to speed you through your chores! The peas are beautiful though in their vibrant green, along with the bright red strawberries that are now also coming into the markets we can see that spring is insha’allah just around the corner!